Like many on here I ended up on anti depressants after my stroke, it really annoys me that I didn't have the mental strength to get through it without taking them but at the time I needed it, i haven't had one for over three weeks and I'm sad to say I'm missing them. My behaviour is volatile and very erratic and I feel like I'm battling with myself every day to get through it, people have noticed I'm becoming a bit of a loose canon :-( if you have taken them how long were you on your anti depressants? And if you have come off them what keeps you on the straight and narrow? I'm going to the gym in the morning first thing to get myself going in a positive direction each day is there anything else I can do to help? I went for a game of snooker the other night with an old friend, I figured stuff like this ought to be stimulating me and keeping me content.
Joe, Depression is a consequence of stroke, but it will vary. Being much older than you, I had to accept,at last, that life is finite. However, I did not suffer any major depression. I think because I ‘accepted’ my stroke. I am also a Quaker, so am disciplined in being quiet and peaceful, rather than angry. I have had a good life so far and done many wonderful things. I still hope to do some more. You are a young man, therefore Stroke is a bitter pill to swallow.
That said, I can get angry at ridiculous things. We are having a new kitchen, which has been planned for a long time, but having people in the house sometimes irritates me to a ridiculous level. Sometimes dropping something will send me into inner rage. I then have to calm myself down. I also find exercise classes help and it is good to meet other people. It’s also important to know people around you do love you and care about you,
I hope your mood improves. Think how far you have come already,Joe. Give yourself a break, take some chill out time. You are on the way up, don’t let yourself down.
Strange thing is I'm absolutely fine now but a few hours ago I was really down and I nearly erupted when I got home and found next door neighbours fag butts straying on to my driveway but I've chilled now, I'm probably tired back at work and a demanding wife and two young children to look after along with my early morning gym sessions I'm possibly doing too much. What is a Quaker John?
A pity that the depression got to you. There are enough problems for you to get through without the added delights of depression.
I had clinical depression decades ago. I took seroxat for two months then eased off them and stopped after three months. Took plenty of exercise. Once off them, I have kept on the straight and narrow because I do not want to go back to those dark places ever again. I had prolonged counselling then prolonged group counselling, for about six months. This included relaxation sessions, massage (?shiatsu I think) and acupuncture . Exercise helped me a lot, I was a road runner in those days.
So I think you are doing the right things. Turn off your thoughts if they get depressive, as best you can.
Following stroke I could feel the waves off depression attacking me on a daily basis. Sheer willpower kept them at bay. plus smiling, smiling works for me.
To deal with this a counsellor will be a great help.
Quakers are a religious group founded in the 17th century. Generally, they believe there is that if God in everyone. Worship consists on sitting together in silence, unless someone feels moved to speak. We believe in peace rather than violence and doing what good we can while we are alive. It doesn’t suit everyone, but it suits me.
Your bit about the fag butts is exactly what I mean. After a stroke the silliest things bring on a rush of anger. I had one this evening when my stick fell over from where I placed it. When this happens, I say to myself, ‘Come on now, calm down,,,you are not a child.’ I don’t know why my brain reacts this way, but it must have something to do with stroke. Colin says Stroke is one of the NHS’s Cinderellas and I think he is right. After care is there for a limited amount of time, but after that we are on our own. Even people around us assume that once we’re home we must be okay and that isn’t the case.
I've planned a nice hot bath tonight so that should be nice and I'm just enjoying a cuddle with my 5 year old daughter she has got her first wobbly tooth and keeps pushing it with her tongue! I can barely watch but she won't leave it alone, excited about the tooth fairy. :-)